I have a bone to pick with you - a friend is

I have a bone to pick with you.It was somewhat of a surprise.

I quote this saying from my heart feeling today, I meant just a few minutes after I read your sms on my phone.

How I can tell you that my heart feeling so and I know, you're not understand even I've explain and talked to you many time. Oh, no. Believe me, I try to explain you next time after everything ok. Why you're not trust me? Why?

Be patient later on you'll know.

I don't understand. Why she acts like that? On the one hand she helped but on the other hand, she undermined you.

What kind of friend do like that?

Am I wrong if I said,

a friend is, someone who supports you all the time, some one to call upon during good and bad times and someone who knows what you are going through at all times?

ok, friend just keep this :

the best way to conquer an enemy is with the weapon of love.

More Joy In Heaven - Sukacita Di Surga

There will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents (Luke 15:7) - Today in Daily Bread.

Demikian juga akan ada sukacita di surga karena satu orang berdosa yang bertobat (Lukas 15:7)

This topic good to share (read : me).

Sukacita di surga. More Joy in heaven. Wah suatu impian setiap manusia kelak bila kita dipanggil olehNYA.

Tetapi apakah setiap yg dipanggil olehNYA masuk surga? Suatu pertanyaan yang menarik bukan?

Jika kita renungkan pertanyaan diatas dan kita lihat sikap dan perbuatan kita serta tingkah laku kita sehari hari apakah sudah mencerminkan ajaranNYA dan kasihNYA?

Sering kita beranggapan bahwa orang benar lah yg akan masuk surga? Tetapi bila mereka tidak melakukan pertobatan??? Bagaimana dengan satu orang yg berdosa tapi bertobat?

All heaven rejoices over one sinner who repents. Seluruh penghuni surga bergembira karena satu orang berdosa yang bertobat.

Kita hidup didunia ini hanya sebentar bukan? Marilah kita berusaha dan terus berupaya agar segala perbuatan, sikap dan tingkah laku kita mencerminkan kasihNYA.

The great GOD who made the heavens,

Keeps the stars within their bound,

Still rejoices with HIS angels,

When a poor lost soul is found - Bosch.

Beberapa Hal Yang Dapat Mendorongmu Untuk Tetap Bertahan

Jika kau merasa lelah dan tak berdaya dari usaha yang sepertinya sia-sia..

Tuhan tahu betapa keras engkau sudah berusaha

Ketika kau sudah menangis sekian lama dan hatimu masih terasa pedih..

Tuhan sudah menghitung airmatamu

Jika kau pikir bahwa hidupmu sedang menunggu sesuatu dan waktu serasa berlalu begitu saja..

Tuhan sedang menunggu bersama denganmu

Ketika kau merasa sendirian dan teman temanmu terlalu sibuk untuk menelepon

Tuhan selalu berada disampingmu

Ketika kau pikir bahwa kau sudah mencoba segalanya dan tidak tahu hendak berbuat apa lagi..Tuhan punya jawabannya

Ketika segala sesuatu menjadi tidak masuk akal dan kau merasa tertekan..

Tuhan dapat menenangkanmu

Jika tiba-tiba kau dapat melihat jejak-jejak harapan..

Tuhan sedang berbisik kepadamu

Ketika segala sesuatu berjalan lancar dan kau merasa ingin mengucap syukur..

Tuhan telah memberkatimu

Ketika sesuatu yang indah terjadi dan kau dipenuhi ketakjuban..

Tuhan telah tersenyum padamu

Ketika kau memiliki tujuan untuk dipenuhi dan mimpi untuk digenapi...

Tuhan sudah membuka matamu dan memanggil dengan namamu..

Ingat bahwa dimanapun kau atau kemanapun kau menghadap...TUHAN TAHU

Peyem and Brownies

Brownies


Peyem

Look at the picture. It's very delicious. It's one of traditional food from Bandung. One of our inspector just back from Bandung and bring this. Want to taste? Welcome...

Idul Fitri 1427 H

7 Fabulous Things

I got home work from my friend. First got from sweet couple and the second from mama jeremy

Looks like same. Isn't it?

Well, I will do it sist'.
Mmmm which part we can say to start...how about this one :


7 things that scares me :
1. my kid crying in middle of night (lucky, our kid never do it before, Thank you God) without my husband beside me
2. no money when I need buy some food for my kid
3. alone at home
4. trapped on the lift
5. trapped by flames
6. watch the horror movie ( I never liked this movie)
7. see a dentist

7 dreams :
1. bring our child to Disney Land (read : in Hongkong)
2. study abroad for our child
3. have own business in our home town (read : Medan)
4. good vacation in every year (read : if we've money)
5. bring our family to see Jerusalem
6. large farm
7. back to my home town (read : will do)

7 things about my family :
1. service in church
2. Tahu and Tempe our favorite food and special traditional food is "Karo"food
3. love singing and dancing with kid
4. simple life and hate a liar
5. bananas and orange are our favorite fruits
6. love cartoon movie
7. like to learn something new

7 date to remind :
1. our wedding
2. kid brithday
3. my mom and dad birthday
4. my mother and father in law birthday
5. sist' and brother birthday
6. schedule immunization for our kid
7. annual regular medical check up

7 random songs at the moment :
1. Hi-5
2. Barney
3. Album from "Hill Song"
4. MLTR
5. Lobo
6. ABBA
7. Radja

7 random fact about me :
1. mom with 2 pretty daughter
2. married with one husband
3. love swimming and reading
4. love cooked and try a new recipe
5. love read a book to my kid
6. love coloring with my kid and never speak loudly to them
7. never miss communication with husband, never argue in front of our kid

7 things I said the most :
1. God Bless You
2. nakku..mari min ( read : traditional language, we keep this language in my family)
3. honey.....
4. Brigitta...Gabie.......be a good girl (read : I always said to them every morning before I go to work)
5. come on dancing with nande ( read : speak to my kid)
6. jump..and hop..hop... (read : speak to my Brigitta)
7. that's bapa, this is nande, you're Gabie, that's a cat, that's a dog, that's a bird, that's a car, that's our auntie....etc..(read : teach Gabie)

Gabie (2)

Me and nande. I like this moment. When my nande not working I can play with her every day.

Hi...I'm Gabie (1)

I was 14 months.




Look at my eyes.





















Nande, stop..don't follow me.


Nande.. are you ready..ooopssss....

@ I want tell you something @

One of my friends asked me :

She : eka, why in your blog typing in English language?
Me : because I want to improve my English
She : which English version are you using ?
Me : pardon ? you meant English-British or English-American ?
She : yes
Me : I’m using English-British.
She : why?
Me : because I like to used it. (smile to her).
Me : you know why ? (asked her)
She : No, can you explain it to me please.
Me : because, I wish I could go there (read : England). I wish may be someday me and my family will go there. (it’s my dream, hopes come true sometimes). For me, England is a historical country.
She : that’s why you always ask your team work about England and talk to them all about England, isn’t it?
Me : thank you for your consideration of me about this. You know, they (read : most of my team work is England) always teach me and correct my language. When I said something to them - if I made a mistake or I said something silly to them, would you please correct my English and you know? They do it for me. Those guys are very good. Once I find a new word and I don’t know what it means and how to spell it , I ask them and they’re very happy to explain to me.
She : I see.
Me : Yes
She : how about your Mandarin?
Me : My mandarin?
Me : mandarin still has a class. I practice it to one of my friend in this project and with my husband sometimes.
Me : how about your English Class?
She : not bad.
Me : what do you meant not bad?
She : yeah
Me : By the way, where are you yesterday ?
She : I’m sick.
She : And you? Why you not in the office for 3 days?
Me : I’m sick too. Infection in my throat. I have a sore throat. Very bad. Can not eat and drink as well and I’ve a high fever.
She : So how do you feel today ?
Me : Be better than yesterday.
She : how about your family?
Me : mmm
She : ok?
Me : it’s ok.
She : how about you vacation plan for this year ?
Me : no plan, stay in Batam until Christmas eve may be go to Singapore or K.Lumpur for a couple days bring my kids play in Genting Island or see my auntie in Singapore.
And you ?
She : Back to Jakarta. For Hari Lebaran. I’ve pass my request form travel to our secretary for supervisor approval. Last Lebaran I do not back home, this year I will do. I’ve promised to my kids to see my mom and dad in Bogor.
Me : ok, see you later, bye now.
She : thanks eka, nice talk to you, see you later too.

Some of my friend (read : my team in project) already fill in they vacation plan in vacation plan form. My family will be staying in Batam no plan for this year.

I just start work on 6 Oct, after get MC from my doctor in our clinic. I’ve sore throat. Very Bad.
And last week Batam is always enveloped in fog , exactly smoke. Very bad. Smoke comes from neighboring island is Sumatera island. Forest burned. Why people can do that ?
Approx one week Batam Island enveloped in smoke. It’s no good for health. Bad vision. Based on Batam Pos (read: Batam Newspaper) yesterday the mayor announce to be careful and used masker if do activity in out door. And be aware for kids playing in out door. Please minimize activity in out door if it’s not very important.
Until now smoke still in the sky. But today looks be better than yesterday. I can saw birds flying, wind is blowing and Mr. Sun smiley. Tk’s GOD.

On my way to back home I saw little children sold newspaper and turn back my head the other kids sleeping beauty on the road, oh my GOD. I get chocked up what I saw, I was filling out. I am very sentimental. For me it’s easy and safe to get emotional over fictional characters and events. I also felt the need to weep. I’m just a softie when it comes to those things. I just remember about my kids, my beloved. Sleep in good room covering warm blanket. Oh, Thank you GOD for what I’ve being a part.

Be humble and you will not stumble. For me weeping seemed the only appropriate response if I saw a contrast around me. (Read: No women no cry, ha ha... it’s me)
“Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love” (Eph. 4:2 NIV) True compassion is love action.
Bill Crowder said: As we see condition of the fallen world and the lostness of the people who surround us, let’s ask God to give us a heart that mirrors the heart of Christ- a heart that weeps with Him for a lost world and then reaches out to them in love.

# Today #

For my Love - My Jo

# Chance / Opportunity#

Monday Morning. Batam rain. Rain in the morning. Heavy rain these days. I meant the last few days.
Early morning I got email from my friend ( in bahasa) .

Hi ,

Apa kbr hari ini? Semoga setiap hari didlm hidup kita memberikan harapan baru bagi esok hari karena harapan membrikan kita semua alasan untuk berusaha. Semoga setiap hari yang baru memberikan perasaan girang, sukacita, dan harapan yang luar biasa. Semoga kita menemukan kedamaian di dalam hal2 yang sederhana, karena hal-hal sederhana akan selalu ada disana…

I join this project since April 22 this year, after one month I got new chance with another dept. I'm sad, Why came too late after I joined this project. Never mind. But 2 weeks after, he asked me again. Oh My GOD. I explained to him about our system and about our procedure here. He understood. Month by month passed, last week on Wednesday, he came to my office. It came as a shock to me. I'm in for a surprise.

XXX : Eka, could you mind sent to me your CV please for my review?
Me : Oh..o...ok sir, no problem.
XXX : If possible tomorrow morning.
Me : ok, I can sent it now to you so you can read it thru your blackberry.
XXX : sorry, eka, my black berry can't receive attachment.
Me : oh,.Sorryy Yes I know .

After he went out, I am looking for my CV and sent to him directly twice. Why? Because the first time I type wrong year, I think is ok for him, I knew him, he's a good Boss here.
Two days after I sent email to him, I got email from him. He said thank you and will review it.


On saturday I met him again.

XXX : eka , I was read your email ( yes, I knew it sir, you've read it)
Me : Ok, tk's sir for reply my email soon.
XXX : no problem
Me : but, I've sent to you twice sir. Have minor correction. (my self keep smile to him)
XXX : Oh, yes, it's ok no problem.
XXX : next week I'll on leave.
Me : O, back to your home town or what?
XXX : Yes.

XXX : See you later.
Me : Bye, waved my hand to him and his car passed through in front of me.

Oh my GOD, good chance/ good opportunity.
Now, I'm still waiting. Waiting for some news.

The Lord has promised good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be;
As long as life endures. ( read : based from "Amazing Grace " song).

GOD help me, YOU know what I want for this time.

* Up date *

Upss..I've a couple weeks not up date this blog. Yes. Plenty of story during my absence. Start from 10 Sept, my second daughter (13 months) has stomach ache, but it's ok, I can handle it without doctor, as long as I can control her meal, food, take more liquid, it's ok. ( It take 4 days, but I'm not panic. I know very well about her, even has stomach ache, she/my gabie, no change in her meal /food and activity). I always keep on my mind, stomach ache is proces of our body to release all poison in our stomach. Keep more liquid/juice/milk, healthy food, good rest, that's all my tips I had done to my kids if they have stomach ache. After that my first daughter has fever. A High fever. Gave tempra syrup. More liquid like juice, milk and water. Healthy foods. The day after she's looks ok. The story not the end, after my first daughter has a high fever, 2 days after, my second daughter has a high fever too. It take 2 days. Thank you to GOD for recovery of my kid. (Noted : during that time I didn't go to see doctor. As long as I can handle it by my self . My tips only : keep take healthy food/meal/fruits, more liquid and good rest. That's all).

14 September - 16 September. Have exam. in my Mandarin class. I get good mark.

18 September - 20 September. Site visit. Very tired.

My friday breakfast

*Friday Morning *

Ups....I'm sleepy. Today is Friday start work 6:30 AM. Grrrrrrr. Wake up early 4:30. Left my home sweet home 5:30. Arrived office 6:00AM. Go to pantry make a cup of milo. And one of our planner take my pic. in our pantry. Look my eyes. Sleepiness. How do I get rid of my sleepiness?

Ha...ha....my office mate see this pic. and said "eka not bad". Look eka's eyes still red color. Grrrrrrrrrrr.

Tk's folks. Appreciated.

He likes joking. And always has joking with me and my boss in the morning until I say come on, stop clowning and get to work before our boss says some word to us.

Our pantry is one of our favo. place in this office. Why ? Everybody can see something to eat and to drink in there. And is a good place have a little chit chat before start the work. Sometimes our janitor very hard to stop our habit in the morning in our pantry. Lucky we have a good janitor. She's a good worker.

6:20 stop over to our doc.control room have a sit and I'm still sleepy. Oh no... I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes. Come on..please.. . Have a minor conversation with them I felt still sleepy. They take my pic. again and I try give a good smile eventhough my feel still sleepy. I dream my bed, my lovely bed room. Zzzzzzzzz..plakk...not... This is time to work. I just remember where I put my break fast and my drink? Gerrrrrrr. I forgot. Oh no..I missed it. Back to pantry looking around. But I can't find it. Where is it? Turn back to doc.control room, searching my breakfast, it's not there. Where is it. Asked my friend one by one . They answered "don't know". Where are you my breakfast?

Walked to my room. Our janitor approached me and said "mba eka, I put your breakfast on your desk. I find it in our pantry and I take it and put on your desk, I thought you forgot to bring it she said to me." thank you mba, I said to her.

# Ring and Bracelet #

I'm very happy. Because my lovely-jo-hubby just back from his trip(Beijing). He gave me a good gift. A ring. String with white gold and diamond and green stone in middle of the ring, they called jade(read : giok-in bahasa). And the day after one of our site planner back from Thailand and gave me a bracelet string with silver and green stone too. Ohooo..good bracelet. Looks like one set. I love it.

*my lovely room*

* typical man *

I feel (down) in the dumps today. Why? Just argued with one of our inspector. He's a typical man. He's short tempered with everyone. Everyone had fight with him. As a project secretary I was responsible of secretarial duty or administration matter. We work here under good control, good system and good procedure as a big and a good company in this town.

The other inspector came to see me and asked me to provide everything in his container. Usualy for new container we will provide some furniture, office stuff, power cable, net work line, telp. line, pantry and everything. We (me and my boss- fab.yard supv.) already request to project management team to provide that all. All the stuff still in process under procedure and under control by them. The typical man came and interrupt our conversation . You know what's he say? Do not ask them they do not know about it. Errrrrrrrrrrrrr. I turn my head and said to him what????? Gerrrrrr. He words burned me up. Oh GOD. Please help me. It's not the first time. I can't stand his act any longer. I call him when he went out of my room and the other inspector together and gave him hell. I said to him "I've been working here 6 years I know the procedure ". And I said again " remember this is minor project, may be I'll be meet you again at another project but please take note I'm not typical women like you".

Oh my GOD. Eka come on "calm down, take it easy,hold your pants on, settle down "(I said to myself). Eka, pull yourself together ( wish to my self again). Let me settle down long enough to concentrate and back again for my work.

My Sunday

We've plan go to MM at sunday afternoon. Buy something for my sist and my bro in Jkt and buy some gift for all my family in Jkt too. Tomorrow my hubby will be going to Jkt with the second flight and 18th will flight to Seoul and Beijing. Will missing you my love-Jo. Again. Have a long trip. Sad. That's my hubby job. Go with my older daughter-Brigitte and my hubby left home around 2:00hrs. My daughter said "nande look at abang ojek. He has a strange manner". Amazing this words come from my dauhgter mouth, was almost 3years old . She already knows and can say something strange around her. Tk's GOD. My lovely daughter you already growth now. My hubby smile and explain to her why abang ojek do like that on the road.

Batam,crowded. Dark puffing smoke and loud roaring noise comes from every vehicles. Uffff..pollution. Am I wrong if I said Batam will be polluted city. Oh No. Turn back for 8 years ago first time I've step in Batam. Batam very quite.

Embarrassing. Batam neighboring with Singapore and Malaysia. Both of the country clean and tidy.

Upon we arrival at MM my lovely daughter looks very happy. Met my old friend "B&L" with her kids at "SB" corner. Wonderful she has 2 kids now. Say hello and directly go to "M" shop buy some gift. Goes to ground floor buy some fruits, cookies and house hold, go to "CK" shop buy something for Gabie. And the last shop to visit is "B" shop buy special "slipper"for my love mom. Play in TZ. Rest in A&W corner with rootbeer and buy ice cream for my daughter. My hubby said to Brigitta " kakak, you look very tired, we back home now." My daughter said " no, bapa, no. I want you buy one turtle for me with big eyes,dark color like in that shop. She pointed toward to the shop. O lalala..please. I approached her and my hubby and said "kakak, you have plenty of toys , you have 3 set barney, dora, doraemon, twin dolphin,bingo-doggie, couple set teddy bear,barbies, mickey & minne mouse,pooh, tiger,pigglet,sponge bob,hello kitty and others, please sweet heart this time no turtle." I looked at her she said again " but I didn't have turtle yet in home, please nde, please she said." I turn my face look what my hubby said. My hubby approached her and said " alright sweet heart we buy only one and small size, remember only small size , that's all." Thank you Bapa she said and give her big hug to my hubby with 3 times kiss. He3x.. that's my child type.

Arrive at home around 7:00PM. Have dinner first after that change cloths and going to "Pilars home" for sunday evening prayer with my hubby. This time my turn to lead the prayer. 9:30PM back home and until 10:00 PM prepare everything include my love stuff, travel kit, document,put it all in one travel bag. Packing some gift. I'll to finish up that all before go to bed. Ufffppp..I'm very tired.

Choose

Life is all about choices. " I have two choices. I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in bad mood".

I'm quite stubborn mom. Once our second baby born I decide to look after her and take care our child and I want be 100% mom in home. During that time I feel boring and asked my husband and wish to my self If I could and will back again for working . My husband decide to me better look after our child. He's not agree. Saddnes appear in my life.

Time is coming, HRD call me and gave me opportunity. I'm very confused that time. I try do the best, explain to my husband,bla...bla.. get permission from him. Tk's GOD. He was agree. I'm very happy. Recently I turn my head look toward to our child playing with her barney suddenly I'm sad. My tears drop. Oh no. Oh ..GOD. I've 10 months with them, playing together, take shower together, playing barney and... no.. I must choose .

Have advise from my love-husband and call my mom to look after our child during I'm working for temporary and asked her to looking for a nanny for our child. She agreed. She came with a nanny and right now my mom still with us. she is very love her grand daughter.

My Child If mom can choose, I'll beside you all the time. I promised to my self do the best for my child. After working hours spent all my times with them.

My Child If mom can choose ,I'll beside you all the time than go to the mall with friends, met for chit-chat and window shopping.

My Child If mom can choose, I'll beside you all night long, tell you story, sing a song, watch cartoon, play puzzle than still in office for meeting .

My Child If mom can choose, I'll beside you go for every step we had, for every move we had than travelling with somebody else.

My Child If mom can choose, I'll beside you for playing ball, barney, dora than playing bowling with my friend.

I love you my dear. Brigitte and Gabie. I worked for you. What ever I do it right now it's all of for you.